For years, shame hid itself deep inside the cavities of her soul. Buried underneath, an innocent girl longed to escape, but didn’t know how. Her cries for help were muffled by the lies and deceit that shame creates. And as she became a woman, her only way of coping was to create more shame.
Promiscuity and binge drinking became her comfort. It became another layer, smoldering that innocent child within. Self-destruction became her best friend.
She carried on with her life sharing with friends and lovers the childhood sexual abuse she suffered, but she also lived in denial of the damage it had done to her soul. Denial hides shame and shame breeds self-destruction.
Self-destruction says, you’re not good enough.
Self-destruction says, you should be ashamed of yourself.
Self-destruction says, this is all you’re good for.
Self-destruction says, this will make you feel better.
Her friends used to tell her she was her own worst enemy, and they were right. The enemy living inside of her, lying to her, kept that innocent little girl hidden for so many years.
Jesus eventually helped her expose Satan and his lies. Jesus showed her she was loved and precious in His eyes. He revealed to her that her identity rests in Him and Him alone. He strengthened her and built His rock for her to stand on. He redeemed her, rebuilt her, and restored what was taken from her in her childhood.
That little girl has been reborn with a new soul and heart. And with a new innocence that breathes the gentle words of Christ,
You’re good enough!
I am proud of you!
You’re my precious daughter, Darci whom I love with all my heart!
Rest in my comfort and I will make you feel better!
*Dedicated to all my sisters in Christ who have survived sexual abuse. If you or someone you know is a survivor of childhood sexual abuse and are looking for healing, I encourage you to attend Restoration Counseling and Beyond the Silence classes at Discovery Church.