Written by Cherished Blogger  Kim M. Dupree

“God, what’s wrong with me?” I’d asked many times.

One day I listened.

I heard, “The devil is a liar. You’re not damaged goods. You’re an overcomer in Christ.”

For years, I functioned superficially—paid bills, met for coffees, attended church…

When work, play, and church were done, I crumbled like a sand castle in despair. Sludge ran through my veins. I could hardly move or cry out. I slumped in a catatonic state in front of my TV. Countless times I couldn’t muster the energy to bathe or brush my teeth. I smelled so badly. When on comfort food runs, I’d go out looking like I’d been pounded into a fine powder and blown away.

Depression was my stronghold.

It has taken me years to unpack the roots of depression that began choking me during my dysfunctional, migratory, and latchkey childhood and well into my adulthood, laden with compulsive eating, impulsive spending, sexual impropriety, job hopping…

I got professional counseling and inhaled self-help books for a long season before I intentionally tapped into God’s Word as the supreme source for renewing my mind.

This time of year (and throughout winter) is the bleakest spell for people who experience fleeting malaise or seasonal affective disorder due to weather/time changes or sadness from the absence of healthy family ties.

Others experience acute depression that’s unrelenting every day.

The World Health Organization states that more than 300 million people are affected by depression, especially women.

In the secular sphere, depression creates robust dialogue. In the Church, Christians are often silent sufferers, uncertain if their heaviness has spiritual or biochemical implications, or fearful of the “crazy” stigma and judgment of their ability to trust God.

Notwithstanding, our Living Savior’s shed blood and resurrection have made us free. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18 (NIV)

The Bible also reveals we’re not alone. Great men and women of God have wrestled in the trenches of emotional anguish from brokenness, abuse, or loss. Moses, David, Job, and Hannah were some notable followers of Christ whose stories are posters of the human condition.

In affliction, Job lamented, “And now my life ebbs away; days of suffering grip me. Night pierces my bones; my gnawing pains never rest.” Job 30: 16-17 (NIV)

In agony from infertility Hannah “prayed to the Lord, weeping bitterly.” I Samuel 1:10 (NIV)

Even Jesus, our Encourager, who was severely maltreated and rejected, was “a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.” Is 53:3 (NIV)

My healing was not a flash in the pan.

The Living Word became more real to me than my feelings. I put pressure on my faith to profess His truth of my identity—to de-weaponize depression, a pervasive device of Satan to disconnect people from God and His Church.

Praise in the storm and ceaseless prayer are also indispensable.

For years, I’ve been off the couch working as a Christ “disruptor” of the enemy’s schemes.

For Kim M.Dupree, love is everything. This is her maxim and motivation, serving as a beacon for her deliberate choices. She was born in Florida, reared and reconciled to God in Delaware, shaped with fortitude and purpose in Texas, and rekindled in her heart for humanity in China.

For Kim M.Dupree, love is everything. This is her maxim and motivation, serving as a beacon for her deliberate choices. She was born in Florida, reared and reconciled to God in Delaware, shaped with fortitude and purpose in Texas, and rekindled in her heart for humanity in China.

Now residing in Orlando, she principally identifies as a Daughter of God and a Creative Person who is conscious of honoring God, overcoming all things through Christ, and living authentically. Kim profoundly relishes the beauty and power of diverse forms of expression. Reading, people watching, and becoming a knitting novice are among her favored pleasures.

She found Discovery Church on the Internet in 2016 and has been immensely privileged to call it home. At this present juncture of her journey, she is progressively evolving into a Builder of Women empowered by the strength of Jesus, the Holy Spirit, and God’s Word —“As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.” Proverbs 27:17 (NIV)

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