Sweaty palms. Heart racing. Lump in my throat. I saw the long line of women in the registration line and wanted to flee back to my car and hide. The comfort of my car would provide an escape where I wouldn’t have to talk to anyone. I wouldn’t have to be vulnerable and share personal stories.
Being an extroverted introvert is a complicated character trait. I love people, but I don’t like the awkwardness of the first meeting. I love to hear others stories and provide support, but I’m terrified to be vulnerable and share my stories. Once I get to know a group of people, I enjoy being around them, but too much time with others drains me and I need time alone.
So, each semester, I’m faced with the struggle of signing up for small groups and classes at church. My heart cry is to know the Lord and His Word deeper, but my battle cry is for the Lord to keep me comfortable.
I know once I commit to a class, I will have to follow through which means sitting around a table of strangers and sharing details of my life. Who are you? Where do you work? How many kids do you have? Are you married? How did you come to know Jesus?
Answering questions can be intimidating, not knowing how the other women are going to receive me. As I press into the uncomfortableness, the Lord reminds me, I’m there for Him . I serve, worship, and answer questions to an audience of One. The Lord is more concerned about growing me into His disciple than He is about making me comfortable.
I don’t have to worry about how others receive me, because I already know Christ receives me as His beloved daughter. When I focus on these truths instead of the feelings of nervousness, I can come to a place of rest and say yes to Christ and sign up for these classes.
If you are faced with your own internal battle of signing up for a small group or class, know that Jesus is with you in the struggle. He will be with you in the class and He is with you through the journey.
If you feel led, come and check out the last few classes of the “Living Letters” Bible study at Discovery Church’s Central Campus.
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“Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.” Galatians 1:10 (NIV)