By Darci Claggett
Cherished Women’s Blog Writer
Another school year brings a sea of mixed emotions like an unwanted guest. I’m so proud of my maturing teenagers, but am saddened more time has slipped through my fingers. Where has the past 13 and 15 years gone? It seems like I was just sending them off to kindergarten with their little lunch boxes and their little innocent smiles.
Today, there are no more lunch boxes and their sweet smiles teeter between confidence and uncertainty. My son, who towers over me at six feet tall, is a reminder that there is nothing little about them anymore!
There’s a tug of war in my heart. Their growing independence is my reassurance that the seeds I have sown have taken root and are starting to blossom. But, it’s also a reminder their independence means they will soon venture out into the world, without me. Three and five years from now, they will have new meaning and purpose.
And I wonder how quickly these last few years with them will slip through my fingers, unnoticed until the day they move out.
The bittersweet concoction of happy and sad emotions leaves me wondering if I’ve equipped my children with enough guidance and direction to make it on their own. I wonder if I’ve done enough as their mother. I wonder if just maybe, these last few years, I can turn back the clock and do things a little better.
But, I have a choice.
I can choose to wonder about the future and the past, or I can choose to live in the moment and cherish the time that is right in front of me.
I can choose now.
Wondering and worrying only puts me in a place of uncertainty and sadness.
But living for now helps me stay grounded in the certainty of today.
It’s a reminder to me that emotions change, children change, circumstances change, but God never changes. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.
I can put my cup full of emotions into God’s blender and He will create a sweet concoction for me to drink and enjoy.
This school year, as my budding teenagers flourish and journey towards young adulthood, I will choose to enjoy the moments! I will choose the sweetness of God’s cocktail. I will choose now!
Does this new school year bring mixed emotions for you? Lean into the one who never changes. Let Him blend your emotions into something sweet and sip on His promises.