God taught me a big lesson today. I had a 12:30 chiropractic appointment, but could not find my only set of car keys which I usually keep in my purse. I looked everywhere, even through the trash. After canceling my appointment, I continued to anxiously search.
In anxiousness, I caught myself thoughtlessly eating. My soul was stirred up as I kept grabbing certain foods.
At 16 years old, I started anxious eating. Since then, I have gained much insight and victory, but periodically it raises its ugly head. I understood the alcoholic, only I escaped with food.
Over the years I continue pressing in on this one area asking God to TOTALLY free me where food has NO hold. I want ALL the roots removed so I will peacefully eat for my body’s health and God’s glory.
God has been exposing how much of my haphazard, anxious eating is from unrealistic perfection I put on myself. God does not expect me to be perfect. That’s why Jesus came to earth because we are ALL imperfect. I desperately need Him to be my Savior and to walk with Him!
INSTEAD of continuing to be anxious, I finally got on my knees and prayed about my keys. I know God sees all. He often helps me find lost items.
In my mind, I heard, “Look on the key holder.” I know this was God’s whisper to me.
My first thought was, “But I never put them there since I usually keep them in my purse.”
Guess what was on the key holder?
INSTEAD of walking in anxiousness, my desire is to walk in the peace of God. His unshakable, secure, strong peace.
One of my favorite verses is, “The God of PEACE will soon CRUSH Satan under your feet.” Romans 16:20
Wow! Peace is powerful. Peace will crush Satan! God is peace and it’s one of His fruits that we receive when we abide in Him.
Anxiousness steals all peace. I know and feel the drastic difference between anxiousness versus peace, and I desire to identify anxiousness more quickly in all situations.
In anxious moments we are invited to step back into the truth of who God is and who He wants to be for us. No matter what situation faces us, He is the answer and He has the answer for us. He wants to speak into the depths of our soul. He wants to identify lies and shed light on the truth. He wants to free us from life long habits. He sees the roots that run deep in our soul and He is the wise gardener who exposes and removes deep rooted lies. He wants to empower us with Himself.
When we become God’s child, He places us IN CHRIST and He put Himself, the Holy Spirit, IN US. We are surrounded and embedded in His steadfast, secure powerful peace no matter what we are facing.
My prayer: “God, when I am in the midst of rush, panic situations, and perfectionism INSTEAD, I want to run quickly to You, because You are peace. In my intimacy, with You, I find help, mercy and courageous change.
My new battle cry is FREEEEEEDOM!!!!!”